Beginning to Tell Family and Friends

This is one of the hardest parts...its awful, awkward, and emotional draining.  You dread their response and your instinct is to soften the blow and be positive.

I hated telling my dad, I was so afraid of how he would handle it.  He took it better then I thought.  He feels that everything will turn out good.  You began to wonder if they respond in the same manner as you tell them, put on a brave face and be positive.   Maggie and my dad were so great about it.  I love the both of them so much.

Tucker's mother came over to bring some things we had left at her house and we decided to tell her.  I just love Kathy so much.

I called my sister to tell her the news.  That was so hard.  I love my sister so very much.  We are very close.  It was even harder because of the fact that I am not currently close to my mother and it is sad that we are not a place where I feel like I would or could share this with her right now.

But I do have mother-daughter relationship with Terry, who was my dad's second wife.  I called her.  I felt so bad about calling her because of right now she has so much on her plate.  She has a sister who is in poor health and she is so worried about her sister right now and I really hated adding to it.  She is so wonderful.  She immediately told me that whatever I needed she would be here for me.  She will be coming down when I have my hysterectomy.  I love her so much.

Out of the kids, we told Breana and Regan first and that is a story that needs its very own post.  It really ended up being hilarious.

After telling family, I needed a day, a I needed a break from telling people.  It is very emotionally draining.  There is part of you that doesn't want to tell people. You just want to deal with it and move on.  But there is a part of you that feels like you are keeping something from those that are close to you.  For me, I strongly believe in the power of prayer and feel like you can never have too much prayers.  Especially for our family, we wanted all of our children to know, to different degrees, according to their age and what we felt they could understand and handle. We just strongly feel that we should be praying together as a family.